Just a re-post of something old, circa February 4, 2006 to be exact, which feels somewhat new because of recent changes in my life!

I was reading an article about the subject of "Grace" and in the article the man said..."I spent the first 20 years of my adult life working and praying for something that was destroying me, then was disappointed when I was spared."

I have been feeling like this recently. Something that I wanted to happen very badly. Even when it seemed impossible or improbable that it would not happen, I still wanted it to come to pass. As the obstacles mounted, as the tide shifted toward the negative versus the positive I still hoped and actually prayed it would get better and come to the end I hoped and wished for. EVEN when I knew it was definitely not going to turn out like I had wanted, I still prayed and hoped for a turnaround. Why is it that we want the things that, if we are really honest with ourselves, is not the best thing for us. When we don't get it, we say it was best that it happened that way or we say is was not beneficial to us in the first place, but we are still disappointed, we are still sad, we are still hopeful that it will turnaround and go in the other direction. If we, if I am true to myself I will accept the truth of the matter. It won't, it will never go the way I wanted because it was never meant to go that way. I will no longer fret or be sad about the situation because, in truth, it was not going to happen in the first place.